Yesterday morning, I stepped outside to some beautiful fall weather with a cup of joe. Girlfriend Minnesota has clearly confused her seasons this year, and while I'm a little hesitant to let go of summer, it seriously felt amazing.
I knew I wanted to go for a run to clear my head because of some less than desirable things that have been going on with my health. So naturally, after breakfast and some girl chat with my best friend, we changed out of our pyjammie's and headed out. Instantly, the sun decided to crank up the heat six trillion notches and I.was.roasting.
I was headed for a four mile loop and I had hardly hit two miles when I started talking myself out of finishing what I'd started. "No way in heck," I thought, "am I going to make it through this run."
To distract myself, I started thinking about more important things and searching for some clarity. I start steroid injections for my arthritis next week... And well, I'm not ready for it. I'm not ready to give up running for six weeks while I deal with the nausea and fatigue. I'm not ready to start school again this fall.
It's all coming at me like a freight train... And I desperately wish I could jump off the tracks.
Luckily, before I started crying, Jesus put a pretty awesome word in my heart and on my mind:
Philippians 4:13 says... "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength."
That verse is repeated over and over again and it's such a huge form of hope... But for some reason, even though I've heard it a million times, it really resonated with me. It was a freight train I was okay being hit with. ;) It not only got me through the rest of those four miles, but it also clarified a lot of things in my mind. It allowed me to actually rest last night... Knowing that everything is going to be just fine.
School this year? It's gonna be fine.
Any "new" updates about my health? It's old news to Jesus.
My future? God's got it handled.
Before anything comes my way, it's gotta go through the big guy upstairs. He's got me.
It's amazing because the times I'm completely panicked and overwhelmed about everything going in my life on are also the times that Jesus holds me closest and makes sure to hide His word in my heart. It's as if He's trying to tell me I've had the power to fight this battle all along because of Him and what He did for me on the cross.
2 Corinthians 12:9 says... "My grace is sufficient for you; for my power is made perfect in weakness."
Today's going to be a good day. Praising Jesus for His promises, mercies, and unlimited grace... :)