A few months ago, I posted about applying to a PSEO program at Bethel Univeristy here. It really no secret that it's been on my heart... I've been vlogging about it, Instagram'ing about it... You name it, I've shared it. ;)
Last Wednesday, I received a letter from them. I knew that it would either be an acceptance or rejection, and after praying through things for MONTHS, I felt prepared to receive that answer...
When I grabbed the letter off the counter at home and found a quiet spot outside to open it... Suddenly all those months of praying, praying, praying seemed not to matter. It was just that moment. I was scared. And I had little faith.
Because I felt that way, I dropped the letter in the grass, closed my eyes, and started to pray. All I asked for in that moment was God's will and my ability to understand it. I didn't ask for my way. I didn't ask for an acceptance letter.
I just wanted HIS way.
Only then did I feel it was right to open the letter... And when I did, I was blown away...
The letter said that I've been put on the waiting list. Basically, I'm not accepted OR rejected yet. I think that's so funny... Because EVERYTHING in my life lately has been all about patience lately. God knows that, and He's teaching me so much about that virtue.
I won't find out until mid-June what my future looks like, but honestly, I'm at peace with this situation for now. I know that God has called me to and promised a future at Bethel... He just didn't tell me WHEN that would be. It may not be next year or the year after... But He will fulfill those promises.
And through the tough seasons of practicing PATIENCE... God will give me faith. Understanding. Joy.
He will give me all that I need. He will make ALL things work together for my good.
His will, not my way.